Category Archives: Sober
To You. To Me.
To you it’s a glass of wine. A reward. A celebration. A ode to the work hard play hard world. A ‘whoops wine o clock’ giggles and silliness. To you it’s just a pint of beer. Banter, laughs, getting fucked … Continue reading
I can see clearly now..
(Can’t really…) Gosh – the last 10 days haven’t quite been as planned. My irritating lower back pain was taken over by my pulsing eye condition getting worse. I’ve had this for about 10 years, and always thought it was … Continue reading
You can’t stop the thought. But you can control what to do with it.
Gosh, where to start. My mind has been non stop for weeks. So much of it filled up with THE most boring script ‘Germany – to go, or not to go?!’ I 100% decided on yes and no, many many … Continue reading
Fat and angry
Is how I am celebrating 7 months. Woke up at 6:30 to do an hours yoga. Internet connection is awful and kept stopping the video more than usual, making me super angry. And my waist line is the same as … Continue reading
My name is Louise. I am an alcoholic.
I *think* I said those words. I think I heard them come out of my mouth. I think my heart was pounding out my chest, and I vaguely remembering saying I have no idea what I’m saying and knew I … Continue reading
Hello brave new world. Brave new me.
Okay. I’m writing this whether I like it or not, because I know I need to. What a few weeks. 6 months of being sober. I was fairly comfortable with being sober and not drinking most of the time, so … Continue reading
I can only be me. No compromise.
I’ve never felt like I’ve been one of those people who ‘needs’ alcohol. When I see people who don’t drink but are chatty, opinionated, impulsive, silly… I feel like them. That’s me. But I always have drunk. And drunk addictively … Continue reading
I’ve become one of them.
Edit- I say below ‘had a beer’!!! I meant n/a beer ! That’s how far I’ve come ‘obviously not a real beer…’ Haha When I first discovered sober blogs most I disregarded those who had ‘made it.’ They seemed to … Continue reading
Realness
Last night I cycled through a cold, dark, crispy, beautiful London. I stopped in the park and turned off my bike lights and just looked around and breathed. Felt, saw and took in the beauty and the peacefulness. Such real … Continue reading
Such a long long way to go
But go it I shall! I know I’ve come far. I know I’ve actually achieved things I never thought I would – quitting smoking, drinking, hell, I got a job in the organisation I wanted to work for most in … Continue reading
And I go on... 