Rollin rollin rollin

Rich Roll – I love this guy. Addict, vegan, ultra runner. (Don’t let the last bit put you off!) so down to Earth – great guests, many who are addicts and have amazing, humble, funny stories s

The reason I share this is currently listening to an interview and they are discussing how when you think about giving up, especially as an addict, suddenly you seem to have your whole life planned out and how could you possibly do without X… made me laugh out loud. I remember sitting at my desk in London genuinely worrying about how could I survive not having champagne at my wedding. With the non exist fiancé.. with the non existent boyfriend. Hahahaha.

One day at a time. I recovered from Friday. It reminded me how I’m an addict through and through. But I’m now an addict with tools and support and a great life. I held on with everything I had and here I am. Doing alright. Everyone says (and does) have down days – but I’m not sure everyone, for no reason (ie not a death or break up) has days they have to sit on their hands and drink non alcoholic beers to stop themselves from harming themselves or drinking.. but if that’s what it takes, that’s what it takes. But gosh, it can be damn scary. I guess it doesn’t matter – but I ponder it because I assume everyone must know this pain and struggle, but often if I start to vocalise it I can see they really don’t. But I’ve always been known to feel deeply, extremely. Hey Ho. That’s why meetings and blogs are vital eh? 💕

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About MilesAwayGrrrl

32 year old just trying to work on how to move on without alcohol, for a little while at least.. It's been 19 years since I thought it became my crutch, where as really it's been crippling me. (Written in 2015)
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5 Responses to Rollin rollin rollin

  1. I think that’s a good thing to know about yourself. Admit it, own it and handle it. Well done! I think you are a sensitive person and being sensitive is difficult but it also makes you special and is probably something people love about you. TOTALLY ROLLING WITH IT!! 😀😎😍

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  2. Ainsobriety says:

    I wish there was an instruction guide to dealing with those days.
    The days where I feel like I’m drowning.
    I read about surfing the wave, allowing the feelings to come and go. I want to. But it is not that simple.
    Big hug. I hear you.

    Anne

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