Monthly Archives: October 2015

Hello Memory. Is that really you?

Of all the things I’ve lost… I miss my mind the most..  I started reading a book around two months ago. (Half a yellow sun, just in case anyone wanted to know.) I stopped, because I wanted (needed?) to read some sobriety … Continue reading

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Lies! All lies!

Alcohol didn’t make me creative!  It wasn’t alcohol that wrote, printed and sold those zines. It wasn’t alcohol that made me write songs and lyrics and play instruments. Or write poems. It wasn’t alcohol that made me love acting. The … Continue reading

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it’s on. 

last night I felt that little seed of hope again. Of positivity. That actually I’m not punishing myself but I’m doing this to make everything better for me. That I need to learn how to face the though times without … Continue reading

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I didn’t break this weekend. 

So I guess that’s something. Friday night I was Listening to the bubble hour podcast on being en route to relapse I am ticking all the boxes. I guess that I know I’m in mad warning red alert territory is … Continue reading

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This better be worth it.

I wanted wine more than anything. So I snuck in a quick gym session. Got home. Wanted wine. Nope. Smokes. Nope. To hurt myself. Nope. Go for a walk to buy chia seeds. That’s the one Presently I look back … Continue reading

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  Ahh whisky.

I don’t think it’s particularly good but I won a school poetry competition with this. Unsurprisingly I wouldn’t let them print it. 

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Mascara

i need to stop wearing it. I keep either crying it or sweating it down my face. For various reasons I don’t want to go in to. Man right now I don’t know how I can do life. Ever. I … Continue reading

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